FLIRTATIOUSLY SWEET

being a big fanatic of chocolate, i alter my way from simply eating to making it on my own - without losing the core of it all: personal enjoyment.

my favorite is always the dark chocolate which tastes mildly sweet and a little bit bitter. i prefer nuts to raisin or other dried fruits to mix with it.

chocolate is deliberately delicious. it is one of foods of my favorite which seems guilt-free, as certain fruits or vegetables. the fact that consuming some dark chocolate is somehow good for health makes me love it more. besides, it doesn't taste too sweet so i won't be sorry for having any problem from it. i just simply feel more at ease to eat it.

DESERVING A SHOT

admitting that i am wrong when i have done something wrong is not an easy thing. i find that it is hard to even forgive myself at some point. the feeling of "how could i be that stupid?!", or "how the hell did i lose my mind?!", or "what's in the world that i could be that insane?!" is so hard to deal with.

the tendency of being stuck on the past seems to be the heart of it all. it may also define that mechanism of defense thingy within me. i defend myself from me. simply just not knowing where to start mending by accepting all the way that i am.

as time ticks away every second of it, it should be just simple for me to move on with such a big heart of mine that it does not even matter that sometimes i make some mistakes. why can't i just come out in modest and humble way after all? instead, i keep blaming myself and by doing so: wasting my good times regretting things i know i can never go back to the past and fix them. suddenly, my life is a mess.